just a guy made of dots and lines (crs) wrote,
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afraid...

I've been afraid all this time of defining myself too sharply. Still am. Or maybe I just don't know how to go about it, even at a time when I want to, badly.

Defining oneself cuts out possibilities. As an example, If I'm too submissive, I won't be compatible with the submissive cute girls I meet, and then what if they like me? I need to be able to explore that if they decide they like me. It's a position of desperation, of fear, and of meekness.

So I resolve to be more decisive this year. Have positions, well-thought-out opinions on things. Be able to, like, ...

Hmm. This is going to be tough.

Oh, the other resolution this year, go to the gym three times a week. MWF, like clockwork. Absolute, unwavering commitment. Already got Monday in this week, and will get Wednesday in a bit after lunch. Woot.
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