Because work has always been it for me, whether I knew it or not. I have nothing outside of the computer thing; everything else is at most a hobby, a side interest. I've focused myself on something that I have to work hard at, and I have not put in the hours.
I don't understand how I put myself in this position. I can't go back, so I must go forward.
Though, at least, I think I have a lifeline if I need it.