I've figure out what hasn't been working, at least. What hasn't been doing it for me has been my old style of floating out at arm's length from girls, staying friends as safely and boringly as possible. This has always been my M.O. and I am just starting to find out how really ...pointless?... it is. No. That's not right. It can be a frustrating position to be in at the wrong time, at a time when I'm feeling very much like something else.
I should either sleep or wake up. This in-between thing is silly. Both metaphorically and literally.