February 12th, 2002

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Happy Chinese New Year, everyone...

I woke up in a pretty good mood, feeling independent and content... That went down the tubes pretty quickly as I took stock of my life. I should try to avoid the wide-angle view for a while, I think; focus on the day-to-day stuff, get my current work done, and worry about it "later."

Suffice it to say I'm getting frustrated and feeling like I'm not getting *anywhere*. Nothing has substance anymore, I'm just flailing around through the days... some days it looks like dancing, and on rare days it feels like dancing, but really, when it all comes down to it, it's just frantic gyrations, trying to keep my feet under me.

It'd be nice to fall flat on my back and lie down for a while.
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