just a guy made of dots and lines (crs) wrote,
just a guy made of dots and lines

Hope I can sleep well tonight, before the big day. Tomorrow will decide... quite a bit.

On the other hand, I'm now thinking leaving here, getting a fresh start, that kind of thing - not such a bad idea, from a social standpoint. I'm a bit stagnant here, it's true. I've tried to branch out a little, meeting a few new people, but... I'm no good at it when I don't have to do it. I'm no good at it when I have a posse, basically.

Some things I will definitely miss. People, people, people. Possibilities, delusions, friendships, repartees, chemistries, dynamics, understandings, and ... connections. Some of these can be kept over the net. Some can't.

I'm throwing a big monkey wrench into ringrose's campaign (Yes, sabian will somehow go off-camera soon)... Monday night, it was really quite painful to turn in all the paperwork for the character at the end of the run. I've been playing that character for... I don't know. A quick search of mail archives says he's more than 3.5 real-life years old...

If I move, I should consider making it a more real cutoff. A fresh start, as it were. Staying active on Zephyr would be unhealthy, and dangerous to my productivity and happiness in the new place. Must beware the trap... if I leave, there must be a clean brake. Email, lj, but minimal -- Being a virtual citizen of a distant community would keep me from being a real citizen in a local community. Painful as it would be, ... leaving some things behind ...
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