I am getting a job offer from this company in the mail on Monday. This is a very good thing, but my emotions are definitely mixed. I don't want to leave Boston, I don't want to leave my friends. I feel like I just have so much unfinished business here, so many things left up in the air. I've been such a wimp about such things, and now I get to leave behind all these unresolved chords.
Plus, I have to move right after I got my room just the way I like it! No fair!
There are some upsides to this, though. Rochester has a lot cheaper rents than here. It sounds like I will like the job, too. Though perhaps on Tuesday I should pay them a quick little visit, meet the people, make sure I'll like it there, at least a little. That would also give me a chance to see these cheap apartments in person, as well.
Cutting off all these unresolved crushes (unrequited, but also unrefuted) may be just the ticket; a fresh start may get me thinking about relationship things in new ways, and I can stop sabotaging myself from the beginning. Also, there are a lot of distractions out here. In my years at DI I let my social life grow to fill my free time there, and it takes up so much of my time now that it's hard to do anything productive. A reset button on my social life may also be just the ticket.
I will definitely try to have a kickass going-away party. Watch this space. It'll be more conducive to hanging out and talking than, say, bowling. Honest. :)
So anyway, I'm gonna get a 2br place out there, so people should make sure to come visit, it'll be, y'know, idyllic and whatnot. Also, I'll be making sure to visit here on occasion. I will miss so much about this place.